I know a lot of you will understand this and others may not. I am tired of making the effort to be stable and happy inside and out, what does that tell me? My depression is back, seeping into my life once again. What to do??
I have so much going on right now, between the two blogs, the anniversary of LeanOnUs.co, my State Insurance Licensing exam, my research into clairvoyance, my part time job and of course Life with an ex that is thoughtless and hurtful to his children. I know what your thinking, I did this to myself and Yep your right I did, again. Likely, it won’t be the last time I do it to myself either.
So here I am depressed blank minded, wanting to write about interesting facts and my disorder, and can’t come up with anything. While I ponder all this Google will likely once again drop my blog page rank and cost me more money in lost opportunities. Whine, Whine, Whine!!! Unfortunately it is no one’s fault but my own.
This is just what happens to us, Bipolar Minds, we take on too much wanting to do it all and then it overwhelms and down we come from a stable capable mood to a puddle on the ground. I know I am not alone I have talked to many who have the same problem, we can’t seem to see where our limits are and we keep pushing harder and harder till we hit rock bottom. Maybe we weren’t born with the ability to know what our limits are?? I honestly can’t answer that, but I know it is a Bipolar symptom and most every Bipolar person have this problem.
So I am hoping that my researching my soul and possible abilities will help to ground me and show me where my limits are. So for now I am working on the grounding, and doing exercises regularly to help me to get grounded. It is not an automatic for my brain so I have to really pay attention to what I am thinking and doing, and have the will to stop myself.
Well that’s my update for now. Wish me luck and feel free to tell me what you think. I do appreciate feedback and I try not to take anything personally. We are all allowed our opinions and thoughts and I put all this out there in hopes of helping others and getting feedback.