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Is it depression or a lack of vitamins?

Doctor-Smiling

Okay to be honest, it is probably both. A bit of depression and a real lack of Vitamin D and B. According to my doctor I have some inflammation issues with in my body, and that is causing some problems along with a lack of vitamins. He gave me a shot, that contained I think B vitamins and something else to help heal mutant cells.  What does that mean? No idea but I trust this man and he said I will start to lose inches as well. Works for me can I get another shot next week?  lol  just kidding.

So I have my normal depression issues which haven’t been a huge issue till this last year. You all have seen my moods fluctuate drastically and some of that was exhaustion as with out a balance in my body I am not sleeping well and am exhausted all the time. Yesterday was really bad. After my doctor appointment and the shot he gave me by the later afternoon I began to have more energy and feel better all the way around. Still tired but he expects me to see a huge change by Friday.

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Time for a Bipolar Update

If you have read my other posts you know that I have been in a deep depression for a while now.It took me a while to realize it but I finally did and had posted a couple times about it. It is time again to update you on how things are going and how I am dealing with it.

Since I just published a post about my taking on a new blog, I am sure some of you are wondering if I am in a manic or hypo-manic state. The answer to that would be Yes. When I came out of the depression I headed directly into hypo-mania. Actually a bit of it overlapped each other, I was taking on loads of  new stuff, started a new blog, and even more at home while still feeling depressed. Then I came out of the depression fully and popped right into Hypo-mania. 

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I Can’t Stop…. busy busy

Over worked and stressed

 

I realized there is an additional side affect of me being depressed and not resting. I seem to also overload myself. I am sure you have noticed all the posting of giveaways and blogger opportunities. Yep if it is a free link I sign up for it. lol  I do this when I am hypo-manic as well as when I am depressed. I feel blank and I just keep taking on things, helping others and huge amount of giveaways for others.

I am so going to be overwhelmed in a few short days but I can’t stop signing up for things. I go to Facebook blogger groups I am part of and I will see a giveaway open for bloggers to join and I argue with myself. You have too much going on now, you are not going to sign up for another one, this blog is not meant to be a blog full of giveaways, and I leave the page then soon I find myself back there filling out forms. :-(

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When did you last sleep through the night?

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I have written recently about being in a depressed mode, but what comes along with that the longer it stays is; No sleep. Now don’t get me wrong I go to bed every night about the same time but I wake up every few minutes through out the night and roll around and around until I can’t take it any more and I get up. Today it was at 3 am that I couldn’t fall back to sleep even for a few minutes, but that didn’t stop me from rolling around in bed attempting to sleep for nearly an hour. I don’t know about you but that seems to be worse than just getting up. :)  I’m determined though. :)

There are two stages of moods that cause me to be unable to rest. The first is the depression, anytime I am truly depressed

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Depression with Bipolar II Disorder

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♥♥♥♥  I added a couple things after I posted! 

Today I was realizing how depressed I am feeling. Woke up dragging and I have that feeling in the pit of my stomach. That feeling is not my friend. I thought I would share a bit about my depression battles, the effects and well anything else I throw in. Usually it is a mixed pot with me and my posts, very much like me! :-)

Depression.. What can I say, for me I always have a level of depression happening with in me. I work daily to overcome it and when it is at its weakest I can live with it without much effort. When days like today come, I just want to cry, the feeling of anxiety in the pit of my stomach,

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Moods, A Roller Coaster of Life

Hi Everyone!!! Just here today to talk a bit about Moods and how quickly they can alter with Bipolar or Bipolar II.

Faces of Moods

Moods!

I am Bipolar II per my diagnosis many years back now, I tend to rapid cycle which if you don’t know what that means here goes my best description; In any given moment my mood can change for the better or worse and sometimes where others don’t even notice it but I never miss it as most of the mood shifts are internal. Your mind races and your moods do the same. One  moment you are depressed and having that lonely dark feeling and the next your cracking jokes and dancing around playing with your kids, then you can loose that feeling and depression kicks back in or maybe anger, frustration kick in. Sometimes a mood can last days, or moments you never really know and don’t always spot it either.

Lately, for me, I am back on the rapid cycle roller coaster, and I dislike it very much. My already disorganized life just gets

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Just Starting on Medication and Managing your Doctor Appointments

This post is based off a questions one of my readers posed, when I asked if there was anything anyone would like me to discuss. I really enjoy these posts as I can share what I learned over the years of therapy and doctors etc.

The questions is:

I’ve just decided to start getting medication. Do you have recommendations on managing my doctors so that I get what I want out of this experience?

Keep in mind I can only answer this or any question off my experience. I am not a doctor or a therapist.

A Patient Meeting with Therapist

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When I first started seeing a psychiatrist I had no clue what I was doing. I was relying on him to remember me, and the medicines we had tried and not tried. Boy was I wrong, this first guy couldn’t keep me straight and I noticed he didn’t pull a file or anything when I came for my visits he didn’t take notes etc. If this happens to you I suggest you think carefully about changing doctors. Red Flag!  This taught me that I needed to take a bit more control of my appointments.

I began to research depression, as that was the major symptom, along with rage and mood swings. The doctor was smart enough to mention Bipolar II. I went online read and read and searched and read. I went to bipolar chat rooms, and different sites that were set up to support people with mental illness.I didn’t do much talking in those chat rooms but I did a lot of observing conversation and learning what others were going through and what medicines they were taking. Then I would research the medicines a bit and gather even more information. In the chat rooms they talked a lot about the side effects of certain medications and that was really helpful.

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Supporting Loved One’s with Bipolar Disorder by Naomi Esterly

This is a guest post from Naomi Esterly, I am pleased to have her guest post on my blog today. 

BIO:  Naomi Esterly is a mother of two boys, a baby girl and a wife to an army man. She may appear like she’s got her hands full but she tries to find time to volunteer in her community center and write freelance for companies like 1800WheelChair.Com. In this guest post she talks about supporting family members dealing with bipolar disorder.

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Several million people are affected by the serious mental illness called Bipolar disorder. While bipolar disorder, a condition that is characterized by extreme mood swings that range from mania to depression, is most common in teenagers and young adults it can strike people of all ages. Those who suffer from bipolar disorder experience a myriad of emotions, which can be stressful to themselves as well as those around them. Often times, people distance themselves from loved ones who suffer from bipolar disorder simply because they aren’t aware of ways to cope with the illness. However, with the proper knowledge and education, I have discovered that it is possible to learn positive ways to live with those suffering from the illness. I’ve been able to learn about the positive ways to deal with bipolar disorder through raising my son, Jacob, who is now 20 years old and currently able to live a reasonably normal life despite the illness, thanks to many of the positive coping mechanisms we’ve learned together throughout the years.

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Fight Depression with Delicious, Healthy Foods

This is a guest post from Cindy Johnson. She writes a blog at http://healthyrecap.com/. She was kind enough to offer a post on Fighting Depression with healthy foods. I thought this was a great idea and a great fit for my blog, so you will find her post below: 

Fight Depression with Delicious, Healthy Foods Image of a healthy meal, Grilled Fish and vegetables

By Cindy Johnson

Depression is virtually unknown in some countries and a growing concern in others, including the US. Can bad diets be the cause? Some scientists say yes. Small changes to your diet can make a huge difference in controlling mood disorders.

According to the National Institute of Mental Health, in any given year nearly 7% of the adult population in the US suffers from serious depression, and almost 17% are treated for depression at some point in their lives. Teenagers are particularly susceptible to mood disorders as well, and depression often starts early. But a growing body of scientific research points to some simple diet changes that can help stave off depression and help you or your teen maintain an even keel.

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These Past Few Weeks…

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I have been reporting to you on my having an episode of depression and a bit of Hypo-mania. What I haven’t shared is just how busy I have been these last 6 weeks or so. Well I have and haven’t so today I am going to talk about how I allow myself to get committed to too many things at once and put way too much pressure on myself and then have these different episodes with moods.

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Mood Stability is Hard to Come by…

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Wow what a great weekend! It was so beautiful out Saturday mid 80′s and clear as a bell.  My moods on the other hand not so clear and some what annoying. Carl would contest to this I am sure.. heehee  I was feeling good Saturday Morning as I had a good nights sleep and I was in a good mood compared to how I had been feeling.  As the day went on I realized my mood was too good. Yep almost Hypo-manic! 

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Depression is Clearing.. Increased Energy

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Clearing has begun!

I have good news to report, my depression is clearing little by little, day by day. My energy level is picking up and I actually got a decent nights sleep last night.  Only woke up a few times so it was a definite improvement!

Today as the day went on, I actually was in a good mood and my energy continued to increase. It was a difference I welcomed with open arms! :)  

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Bipolar Mind… Foggy, Hazy but Clearing

Hey everyone.  Just another update on my Bipolar Mind and Depression.  I am still not sleeping well but resting more than I was, my mind is still foggy but it is getting better so I hope in a week or two I will be back to a livable level of depression.  :)

When I get like this it is like living in a dream or a fog! I can’t keep thoughts in my

Trees in the Fog, Much like my mind!
My mind is in a fog!

head and I lose my words when attempting to have a conversation. It is frustrating for me and those around me and if someone interrupts me I lose all train of thought and have absolutely no idea what we were talking about.  I can type out thoughts but I can’t speak them well.  It is like my brain and my mouth are completely out of sync!

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Depression and Sleep..

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This is where I want to be!

I admitted to myself and the world yesterday I am deeply depressed, slipped right into a major depression when I wasn’t looking.  I am not sleeping. I sleep but I never really rest, my mind is going like I am awake and I wake up in the morning exhausted with thoughts swirling in my brain.

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Being Honest with Myself…I am Depressed.

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This is where I want to be!

I guess it is time I just flat out be honest with myself and stop saying I am overwhelmed and tired from the work.  I am Depressed!  No other way to put it.  I have not felt like this in a while and I hope I can pull out of it by increasing medicines but I am depressed on a serious level.

I am exhausted, from the inside out. Everything is taking a major effort! I am crabby to my kids and impatient. Sorry girls!! I am emotional and my body aches. I am trying to pull out of it!!  

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Friday Update…

Wow! Happy Friday everyone!! 

This week went really fast and I didn’t get as much accomplished as I would have liked.  I started the week happy and getting things accomplished until I got news of another death in my extended family.  I don’t know about you guys but that is one thing that makes me hit rock bottom with my depression and I can’t say my mood has been pleasant either.  Sorry to my kids who take the brunt of it. I try so hard to think before I speak but there was a day this week that I really felt bad chewing my daughter out for her attitude! 

So since Tuesday evening  I have been feeling down and my mind has been very cloudy, energy level is low, I’m not sleeping well, I am napping during the day, I’m very emotional, accomplishing little, and well I am happy it’s the weekend because I usually take time on the weekend from the blogs and the website to recoup and I am hoping I can start next week on a different note.  Well lets say that is the plan, no more moping!!  It is also St. Patrick’s day so Ladies I have put in a pic of a sexy St. Patrick’s Day Man, really I thought it was a funny picture… LOL  ♣

I have had to adjust my medicine again to see if it will help me pull out of this before I get too depressed. My life is good and you all help me see that every day.  Your support has been amazing and I do my best to show that support back. 

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