Bipolar2Happiness

Mental Illness Stigma or Should We Say Ignorance?

Feb 192013

I started this blog to help people to understand that Mental Illness is just that an Illness. An illness like diabetes and the like. It is treatable, although not easy to treat and a long road to stability, it is treatable.

We have to live a bit differently at times in our lives than others do, a lot of us end up on disability as keeping stress at a minimum keeps us from being out of hand. We fight our illness’ daily and we struggle just like anyone with a physical disability might, the difference being you can’t always see our disability but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist.

Do I Share, I might be feeling better??

Hypo-Mania, Mental Health 2 Responses »

Jan 092013

Okay obviously I am sharing, positive news today. I am beginning to feel better!! woohoo, time to celebrate! Okay lets not get carried away, I have finally kicked the thoroughly awful feeling I got from taking the Latuda for the week I took it. I actually feel in a good mood today! Always good news! Continue reading »

Money, Shopping and the Bipolar Mind

Bipolar disorder, Doctors, Mental Health, Shopping 2 Responses »

Nov 282012

$$$ ugh

At this point I am not sure how many times I have covered this topic. Bipolar tends to have a symptom of over spending or shopping sprees. Well Hello over spending the last year I have had a serious issue with over drawing my bank account. I am not out on shopping sprees but I am in a scattered brain mode and am not able to keep track of it properly. I am able but my mind is so scattered and my concentration and memory so bad that I am messing it up every month.

Get this, this last month I was over drawn 428.00! Now I am not rolling in money and that much overdrawn means no money at all. I am fearing not being able to make my rent and utilities here on the first. What is wrong with me? Why can’t I get a handle on it? Continue reading »

I have an announcement

Announcements 2 Responses »

Nov 192012

Hey guys, I have an announcement to make. I have started another blog, Yep I said, “another blog!” I want to move a large portion of the giveaways and such on over to that blog so I can keep this blog a bit more about life with Bipolar.

I have felt that the real reason I started this blog is getting lost. I need to make some money off the blogs to keep it running as I can’t really afford to keep paying for all this out of my limited income. I will keep ads and affiliate links on here and a few giveaways and such but majority will be at the new blog. Check it out don’t miss the fun!

What is the new blog name?? 1 Stressed Mom and 2 Girls.. It will be some funny stuff about our lives in this home of 3 women and reviews, giveaways, deals, coupons etc. There will be affiliate links on both blogs, I really need to get some money coming in to pay for the blog costs.

If anyone has any really good contacts for reviews or giveaways or any info you would like to share with me I would welcome any information you could share. Email me at [email protected] or [email protected], I check these email addresses regularly. I would love to hear what you all think of the new blog and the idea behind it! You are also welcome to leave a comment on this post as well.

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School is Almost in Session

Anxiety, Mental Health, Shopping 2 Responses »

Aug 162012

Wow can you believe the summer is almost over! I know we can’t believe it, spent the entire summer closed up in the house being sick. Each one of us getting the flu starting with my youngest the day after they got out of school. She was sick for 3 full weeks then I got it, sick for 3 full weeks and still struggling with the congestion, then my oldest got it, sick for full 3 weeks and still coughing and congested.

My youngest starts back to school 27th of August, and my oldest 04th of Sept, so yesterday we were out all day long shopping for clothes. Spent way too much and were all so exhausted at the end of the day we went to bed at 7pm. Not good for me as I slept for 8 straight hours and woke up at 3:30am. Yikes!! Going to be a NAP day for me! We had a great time shopping, had tons of luck for my youngest and got some good things and good deals for my oldest. My oldest has the worst anxiety and usually we have a real hard time getting clothes for her but we had a fun time and found a few things, Yay! Continue reading »

Accomplishments and New Directions

Changes, Mental Health No Responses »

Jul 122012

I recently had a scare with my heart, was carrying too many projects and too much stress and I was attempting to pass the California State Insurance License Exam. I found out this week the problem with my heart is really just the murmur/defect I was born with and that it should never cause me a real problem. YAY..TIME TO CELEBRATE!!

Today I passed the Insurance Licensing exam hence the title “Accomplishments”. Now it is time to crack down straighten things out and get back to my blog and my purpose. I cannot take on as much as I was doing before but I want to get back to writing this blog and researching over on FromHeart2Soul.com, finding my light, my soul and bringing it home.

This next week I will be back and ready to do some writing. I will work tomorrow but will be back Monday 07/16/12!

I hope I haven’t lost all of you by now! ♥♥♥

Bipolar Week Ahead

Bipolar disorder, Mental Health No Responses »

Jul 092012

Cartoon Image of Girl holding blank sign

That empty feeling, you know something should be there but what?

What does the Bipolar week ahead have in store for me? A while back I wrote about That Bipolar Mood Seeping Back into my Life.. it is still seeping in! I am trying so hard to be positive and feel happiness but lately I don’t seem to feel much of anything and I find myself saying negative things. I don’t feel in touch with my thoughts, then some negative topic comes spilling out of my mouth and I am in a sense surprised by it. This is a new feeling for me, I am not sure how to tackle it.

I have been having an issue with my heart and I am trying not to think the worst as I did when I was told it was likely a real problem. Maybe that has set me off a bit or maybe the job or maybe the boredom I am feeling with not being busy like I was with the blog and all the activity. I really am not sure why I feel the way I do or should I say not feel.

I have this empty feeling that I just can’t shake!

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Feeling the Relief

Anxiety, Changes, Mental Health 2 Responses »

Jun 192012

Me Juggling Life!

Today I made a couple of Big decisions and I am just beginning to feel the relief. I have addressed a few problems that I had been putting off. Seems to be one of my symptoms to put stuff off, especially stuff I really don’t know how to handle, or a situation I have never been in!

I have never been good with my finances. I tend to not keep close enough eye on my money and times are tough right now so I have fallen behind on most of my credit bills. We run out of money 2 weeks after I get paid and I get paid once a month. I just pray we don’t run out of something we can’t live without but this past month I had to borrow money from Carl to get through. That is super embarrassing for me. I am at a point in my life that I have never been at before, I have never been in a position that I couldn’t pay my bills on time and with the increase in cost Continue reading »

Bipolar and other Life Issues.

Bipolar disorder, Clairsentient, Depression, Mental Health No Responses »

Jun 112012

Hey everyone! I have been so busy lately with things in life and on the blog and my research on Clair-sentience and other topics. I haven’t posted here lately as the reviews and giveaways I agreed to had fallen behind. So here I am giving you an update.

My daughter, as you know if you read my last post, is back to having problems with her father, she is highly depressed once again. I feel so badly for her and am so angry with him. I need to Continue reading »

That Broken Father Daughter Relationship…

Broken Father Daughter Relationship, Broken Hearted, Depression 6 Responses »

Jun 062012

The pain of the Broken Father Daughter Relationship!!

I have had such high hopes that my oldest daughter (16) would be able to heal her broken relationship with her father. She made a huge effort and spent a week with him, his wife and her sister out of town at a home they bought in another state, in an effort to heal the relationship. It had great affects on their relationship. For the first time in the past 6 years they were both making an effort at the same time. He was being patient and understanding but it only lasted a short few weeks before his wife got to him once again. Continue reading »

Being Trapped in a Dark Place…

Mental Health 2 Responses »

May 102012

I was talking to my friend Sonya and I mentioned to her that in the early days, before I had been diagnosed bipolar II, I felt as if I was trapped in a very dark place inside myself unable to get out and be who I really am. This feeling was present at a very early age, this feeling trapped inside. Continue reading »

Exhaustion… Overwhelmed…

Bipolar disorder, Mental Health 2 Responses »

Apr 192012

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I know I have said this before but I’m exhausted and feeling overwhelmed again. My brain drives me nuts, it’s so busy and the thoughts keep flying through my brain rushing past like little tornadoes. I can’t seem to grasp them enough to even know what most of them are. Continue reading »

A Worn Out Bipolar Mind…

Bipolar disorder, Mania, Mental Health 1 Response »

Mar 042012

Wow, what a day, weekend, well week really. I am exhausted my mind and body are racing and I am worn out. I can’t sleep well. I sleep a few hours and wake up and then toss and turn or I wake up constantly, if I do sleep I feel like I was never asleep, my mind doesn’t stop. Ugh!

I’m thinking about getting some Melatonin to help me get to sleep but not sure it will work and have no money right now anyway. lol Always the case right. Laughing

Poor Sami, I was so crabby today and got all mad at her while we were driving and then we got a flat tire in the neighbors car. I have to say we broke down in the best place as these really nice people came out of their house to see if we were ok and her husband changed the tire for us. Renews my faith in people. They were really sweet people and didn’t hesitate to come out and help. As a matter of fact the husband just said lets open the trunk and he changed the tire without hesitation. Thank you nice people. Continue reading »

Broken Father Daughter Relationship ♥

Bipolar 2, Depression, Mental Health, Relationships No Responses »

Feb 142012

If you have read some of my other posts about my oldest daughter and her father you will understand this one. If not read through A Broken Relationship.. Father and Daughter.

It’s Valentines day today! My oldest daughter texts me from school as she was upset and needed to come home. I told her to go to the nurse and have her call me and I would come get her. She suffers from Bipolar II disorder, heavy on the depression and I knew this morning she wasn’t feeling happy. There are too many bad feelings bouncing back and forth between her and her father and it has gone on way too long. Continue reading »

Mental Illness and Empathy??

Bipolar disorder, Mental Health 6 Responses »

Feb 102012

Lately I have been thinking about this topic of Empathy and how it may relate to my Mental Illness. I was talking to a good friend when she said her son, who has a diagnosis, is very in tune with people and how empathetic he is. It was like a light bulb went off and I said that my daughter is also very empathetic and I have always had a large dose of empathy in my dealings with others.

I told her that I think the Empathy is related to our Mental illness and honestly that I think it doesn’t help us with stabilizing our illness. What I mean is we are so sensitive to emotions and what I always have called peoples vibes that it affects us greatly. I am very affected by others feelings. I can’t go to a funeral for anyone whether I know them or not with out being so completely utterly hysterical that I can’t stay at the service long. I end up Bawling and snot is going everywhere and I always run out of tissues. (Yuck not a good visual) The emotions are over whelming and I feel the sadness and despair others feel as if it is my own. I cannot control it in the least. I can read someone’s story in a book and feel the loss or sadness, mostly books that are real life stories. Although I bawl like a baby at any sad movie. It is embarrassing it’s so bad.

Anyway back to the topic… I think the empathy we feel, the sense of others problems we feel, even when we don’t know what the problem is can really be difficult when it comes to stabilizing a mental illness. I have not actually done any research it’s just my observation, as when someone near me has a serious problem I tend to become unstable and its usually surrounding their feelings that starts it. It goes on for a long time once it starts too.

I think I am going to do some research and see what information might be out there to see if anyone else has researched or thought this way…

I will have to do another post on this subject soon.. Keep an eye out for it…

A quote for today:

The secret of many a man’s success in the world resides in his insight into the moods of men and his tact in dealing with them. ~J. G. Holland

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Migrated my blog to wordpress.org..

blogs, Thankful 4 Responses »

Feb 062012

I’m sure you all have noticed MORE changes to my blog… I’m sorry I can’t stop changing things but hopefully one day I will be happy with it. I tend to get bored and change things a lot. I think it may be part of the Bipolar symptoms I’m not positive. At least I think I’m now happy with the logo or header for the blog now!

Cheeze

Well I moved my blog from WordPress.com to WordPress.org as I wanted to be able to work on doing more with the blog. I have some work to do to figure out how to get involved in reviews or giveaways etc but I will be researching and doing more soon. If any of you have suggestions on where to turn for information or suggestions please feel free to leave a comment.

I really have no direction on where to turn but I am looking into it! I want to try to monetize the blog a bit. I dont want a super busy ads all over the place blog that takes away from my true reason for blogging but just enough to help with the costs.

I hope you are all having a great 2012.. I know for me it has been a good one so far and my youngest daughter turns 13 tomorrow February 7, 2012. It’s unbelievable to me really. Happy Birthday Jessica!!

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Bipolar Life, Good Days? or Bad Days?

Bipolar 2 11 Responses »

Jan 182012

Just thought I should write a bit about how things are going for me at this time. As far as how I am feeling inside.

Today feels like another good day. I hope I don’t eat those words later in the day! We are all going to Carl’s house for dinner he is cooking for us.. Can’t wait. He is so cute, my youngest said to him when are you going to cook for us again I want your mashed potatoes and salad, that was over the weekend. So last night when I went to leave his house he said. “hey do you all want to come for dinner tomorrow? Jessi said she wanted mashed potatoes and salad, so I thought tomorrow would be a good day.” I said, “of course!” He is a thoughtful guy.

I have something to look forward to next week too. I am meeting two women I met on Twitter, Miriam and Pamela, as they are coming to town. I’m super excited can’t wait to meet them. Miriam and I have the Bipolar children in common and her son’s name is Sam and my diagnosed daughter is named Samantha. We cracked up that they were both Sams as I call Samantha, Sami! Small world I’m telling you. Pamela is just a super woman and I really have enjoyed our interactions, she is fun! So looking forward to that next week.

So I guess I should get to the real reason I’m writing this post. I am feeling pretty good now.

Peaceful!

My mind has finally slowed down and my irritation level is lower than it has been, I’m still not organized but I think that’s just part of the illness. I can only organize my thoughts so far then off they go. I do not have the swirling tornado inside me now so that is a big relief. My mother is moving three hours away so she won’t have any power to mess up any relationships and I can get a little distance without hurting her feelings. Big Relief!

I really am enjoying my time with the kids and with Carl. Next month we are going to visit his parents with him for a weekend, usually he goes alone but I am excited to be going with him and so are the kids. He is such a loving man, thoughtful and sensitive, it’s awesome.

All in all I am doing well!! Now that might change later today or tomorrow or next week or a month I don’t know honestly but I can enjoy this time while it lasts.

I want you all to know your support and kind words have really touched me and helped me to feel better, Thank You all!

Every day do something that will inch you closer to a better tomorrow.
~Doug Firebaugh

Be not afraid of growing slowly; be afraid only of standing still.
~Chinese Proverb

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