I have to say recently I decided to do something that pulled one of the most negative things in my life, back into my life. I allowed it to take over and fuel my attitude, turning my life into a big ball of negative. Why do we do that?
I can tell you I did it because I allowed myself to be angry about something that will never change and I have no control over. I have a hard time accepting that people I once felt I knew very well are not at all who I believed them to be. Was I in a fantasy land before, when I thought they were good people? Yes I was… I pulled myself from that fantasy land and attempted to accept the situation and I thought I had but I realize now I had not.
There are a few things I am passionate about in my life and my kids and their well being is one of them. Okay I am a mamma bear where my girls are concerned. I want anyone in their lives to accept and love them, treat them with respect and do what is right where they are concerned. In this life, you do not always get that. I have to remember that they will survive, I wanted better for them but I don’t have that for them, so they will survive. I will love them no matter what, they cannot say or do anything that would alter that love and acceptance I have for them. Not everyone in their lives will be that way with them, and they will survive.
I have taught them all I can about people and how the way they treat you isn’t always about you, it is about them, what they are not, or not capable of for whatever reason. I need to teach them to accept it and to focus on living their lives happily, but not drawing in negative that has left the forefront of their lives.
I have let it go at this point and have chosen to be the bigger person and back off. I will accept it for what it is and stop trying to make the people in our lives be someone they are not, or that they choose not to be. See I think we all have a choice in who we are and how we love and treat others, some people in this life have chosen to focus on themselves and are not giving souls, that’s okay as that is one thing that makes the world go round.
I used to be one of those people, not to my core but with my illness out of control it drove me in that direction, I let it make me someone I wasn’t until I learned to grasp on and fight my way to the surface. I worked and fought hard within myself to improve the level of love I put out into this world, these people I refer to cannot understand that and I accept that. I find there are people who bring out that side of me that I hate with a passion, thank goodness I see it now and can stop it. I will not fight with them and I will choose to be satisfied with whatever happens from here on out.
The universe will send me what I focus on, so I will no longer focus on the old feelings I have for these people I speak of and will renew my thoughts with positiveness and happiness. Whatever comes will come, what doesn’t won’t, we will survive and we will be happy, it’s my choice no one else’s. Mistakes will be made but lets hope the are not gigantic in size, lesson learned!
Sending out much love to you all, Have an amazing week! ♥
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